I had therapy today.

And we talked about weight loss for most of it. I was just really discouraged. I know that I want to lose weight, but my actions aren't following. I can see progress in individual circumstances, but not in the actual weight loss. That's where I need the progress. I also feel stuck, though. I know that a diet isn't the answer, it's sticking to the diet or lifestyle or whatever. It's not as easy as that, though. Anyone knows that. Anyway.

We talked about goals. I told her that it would be cool to lose 10 pounds by the end of April (when the school year is over), and another 5 in that month by my birthday. Wouldn't that be neat? It's also reasonable. My Diet Analysis Software says that I can definately do that by eating 2200 calories a day. Cool.

So then I go and have dinner. I come back and tally up my day, and I've had 2400 calories. I knew I had to write about it...to keep things in perspective. That's only 200 over my target, right? I can't copy/paste it into here, but I did have my fruit, and my vegetables, and my lean meats. I was going to go get coffee later...

Everyone's gone from the apartment. I could do a workout video. I could go for a walk (it's absolutely gorgeous outside). Hmm. I'll got for a walk for 30 minutes. Then maybe I can get some coffee later...this would be a good night to practice the things my therapist wants me to do. She thinks I should make a plan, three steps, to do when I want to eat but know that I don't need to eat. I can do that right now. Hmm.

First: Distance myself; go outside for a minute, sit in the living room, etc.
Second: Write about it. It can be angry, sad, lonely, whatever.
Third: 15 girlie pushups. I need to do something physical, but I won't always be able to workout.

That sounds good. I'll make that into a little card later tonight. I'm going to go for a walk...and then I'll make the card, and then I'll go to the coffeeshop, and hopefully study some. This is a good thing. :)