It's silly and juvenile, I know.

I just ate a handful of peanut M&M's. They've been sitting in front of me for two hours.

I want spring clothes. I e-mailed mom ideas...but apparently she won't buy anything for me ...she just avoided it (money is a weird subject with us).

It made me feel bad, rejected, like I can't be the other kids. I'm the outsider. I thought the M&M's would help. They didn't.

So. I'm angry and hurt. I want new clothes to feel better and look better. To be like the other rich kids on campus. But...I guess not now.