Weight Watchers

My first weigh in is tomorrow. I feel so scared - and I'm not sure why. I'm scared that I haven't lost any weight - that my points values are off. That I'm eating too many, that eTools counted too many for my exercise, too little for some of my food...

I can honestly say that this time I've noticed a difference between last time I did this and this time. Last time I was trying to eat the way I was accustomed to and fit it into my points. This time, I've had meals that I didn't particularly enjoy, simply to do well. I haven't had a since fast food item all week. And I've worked out four times (all true workouts, not a mile walk workout). I'm even thinking about working out today.

There are some challenges, though. Working out without others has proven to be difficult. Every workout this week has been with a class or with a friend. I need that motivation and support, but I can't depend on it. And I haven't seen Boy this week, so I don't know what eating with him will be like. I know he will be as supportive as possible, but I see myself just saying "the heck with it" when I'm with him - which is not what I need to be doing.

Anyway. Back to being scared. I guess I'll just have to trust the process. I truly tried this week and didn't give up which was a HUGE accomplishment because I was tempted so many times. If I haven't lost any weight or haven't lost a "satisfactory" amount of weight, I will just try harder the next week. I have a full month paid for, and I've made a promise for that month - if not longer.