What is wrong with me?

I cancelled my walk with Em this morning - I was just soooo tired. So I got up, messed around, made some breakfast, and went for work for an hour. It was good because I had a lot to do. Apparently, though, I was doing them in the wrong order. Silly boss.

Then I went to Advanced Counseling. Lately, every time I go to class, I feel like such a loser. Like I can't do it. It's such a huge myriad of feelings, and I left class feeling like I needed to cry. I just feel like I can't do it. I need to study for the GRE, and also get caught up on my normal school work. I don't think I'm going to apply to grad school just yet, but apply to the CADC program and get to be a certified addiction specialist. Then I can go back and get a masters later.

I'm also frustrated. I still haven't heard back from LB - I think I'm going to call them soon. I thought I had that job in the bag. And I've been so responsible with my money....

After lunch I work for an hour, and then I have one more class. I think I'll go to the gym and do a quick workout. Then come back, clean up, and go to the library and get some stuff d0ne. Maybe that will make me feel better. Well...maybe workout, dinner, and then come back. That might work.

Tomorrow I agreed to take an extra shift, so I work 10:30 -12:20, and then have class until 1:30, and then 3:30 - 5:00. I think mom is coming up in that 1:30 window to buy some stuff for Christmas because we're having a big sale.

I just feel eh today.