I said I would update.

So, day one: walk, 1/2 water, no vitamin. Day 2: all water, no vitamin, no walk. Day 3: screw it. :p Back on track tomorrow.

I was driving home from work today and passed by the high school. Tonight was graduation. I'm glad I'm not in high school anymore....but I miss the graduation part. Something to look forward to, to feel accomplished about, anticipation and freedom. I know I'll graduate college in a year, and that will be exciting....but also scary. I don't know what I'll be doing after this graduation. Last time I was going to go to college - I had a plan. This time...I know that I want to get a job and go to grad school, but there is so much more uncertainty.

I really, really need another job. On Monday I'll will call all the places that I applied to check the status of my application...I need to be making more money. I can't stress out. I can't. Ugh. My anxiety gets out of control sometimes. And I haven't taken my medicine in a few days, and thats catching up with me.

I think that's part of summer. The free time, the anxiety....things are so new. This relationship is so new, so different. I'm worrying about things I never thought I'd worry about. And I know its sometimes irrelevant and useless....but I also can't help it. I want things to be perfect and they're not....(well, duh).

I don't know what else to say. Oh. Today mom and I went and returned a dress that she had bought me for my birthday. It was cute, it just didn't fit right. We ended up finding two other dresses (there was a huge sale) and they're so cute. One is a cute little vintage summer dress and the other is knit...black with pretty blue accents. Pretty simple...wear to work, or just on a random day. I'm looking forward to wearing a dress...but it needs to get way above 50 degrees before that will happen. I'm tired of having all these cute clothes that I want to wear and not being able to because I'd freeze my ass off.

I guess thats about it for now. I'll write more tomorrow.